[URSP1 ;] > I know, [VMDD2].
[URSP1 ;] > God, I don't--
[URSP1 ;] > I didn't want--
[URSP1 ;] > I didn't mean to make you feel..
[URSP1 ;] > (...)
[URSP1 ;] > Scared.
[URSP1 ;] > I thought that, maybe with me and [DATA LOST] gone, things would have been easier.
[VMDD2 ;] > It's okay, [URSP1].
[VMDD2 ;] > You didn't--
[VMDD2 ;] > (...)
[VMDD2 ;] > Mean to make me feel like that.
[VMDD2 ;] > I don't blame you.
[VMDD2 ;] > I actually, um, blamed myself, mostly.
[VMDD2 ;] > And [LBAF1].
[VMDD2 ;] > (...)
[VMDD2 ;] > After I found out he, uh, helped.
[URSP1 ;] > Blame yourself?
[URSP1 ;] > (...)
[URSP1 ;] > [VMDD2].
[URSP1 ;] > There is nothing you have to blame yourself for.
[URSP1 ;] > You did nothing wrong.
[VMDD2 ;] > I know, I--
[VMDD2 ;] > (...)
[VMDD2 ;] > I swear I get that.
[VMDD2 ;] > Logically, I know I didn't do anything, but--
[VMDD2 ;] > (...)
[VMDD2 ;] > I felt like it was my fault for not helping.
[VMDD2 ;] > Like, I could have done more, and..
[VMDD2 ;] > And, I don't know, saved you?
[VMDD2 ;] > (...)
[VMDD2 ;] > I think knowing I couldn't have actually changed the outcome makes it..
[VMDD2 ;] > (...)
[VMDD2 ;] > Almost worse, in a way.
[URSP1 ;] > I don't need to tell you that you can't always save everyone.
[URSP1 ;] > That's a truth you already know.
[URSP1 ;] > (...)
[URSP1 ;] > But I can tell you that, regardless of the outcome, I would have been proud of you.
[URSP1 ;] > I am proud of you.
[URSP1 ;] > I have always been proud of you.
[VMDD2 ;] > You--
[VMDD2 ;] > You mean that?
[VMDD2 ;] > (...)
[VMDD2 ;] > Oh, god, [URSP1], I'm sorry.
[VMDD2 ;] > I shouldn't have ever..
[VMDD2 ;] > ..Thought such judgmental things.
[VMDD2 ;] > (...)
[VMDD2 ;] > I kept thinking about how I failed you somehow, that you'd be so angry with me, and I just--
[VMDD2 ;] > (...)
[VMDD2 ;] > I shouldn't have--
[URSP1 ;] > [VMDD2], stop.
[URSP1 ;] > Stop focusing on the "should have"s and "shouldn't have"s.
[URSP1 ;] > It's natural to think about those things.
[URSP1 ;] > It's natural to believe them.
[URSP1 ;] > But, no matter what you think or believe, I will never think that you've failed me.
[URSP1 ;] > (...)
[URSP1 ;] > If anything, I..
[URSP1 ;] > (...)
[URSP1 ;] > Was worried I had failed you.
[URSP1 ;] > (...)
[URSP1 ;] > When I was dragging myself out of the fire, I could only think about what you would have thought if you saw me.
[VMDD2 ;] > You never would've--
[VMDD2 ;] > (...)
[VMDD2 ;] > I don't think you could fail me, even if you tried.
[VMDD2 ;] > I just didn't--
[VMDD2 ;] > I didn't want things to be like..
[VMDD2 ;] > (...)
[VMDD2 ;] > With [CFAA1].
[VMDD2 ;] > When I couldn't even do anything.
[VMDD2 ;] > I felt so--
[VMDD2 ;] > So useless.
[VMDD2 ;] > (...)
[VMDD2 ;] > I can't help but worry, and..
[VMDD2 ;] > (...)
[VMDD2 ;] > And I'm sorry.
[VMDD2 ;] > I promise I'll come and visit you, okay?
[URSP1 ;] > I know you can't help it.
[URSP1 ;] > You're like me.
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